It crazy how caught up in society one can get. One day your thinking about whats best for yourself and the next day you’ve been brainwashed into thinking what everyone will think of you if you do something for yourself.I just want to be able to think for meyself, do what i feel is best for myself. whether society has deemed it bad, or not let me decide if its good or bad for myself. I want to not be so structured. I wish you could do things at your own pace. Who decided what the pace should be like? No one was ever told to set the pace for society and how people run thier lives.
I think everyone could live a better life if we all respected the fact that no two people will ever go through life at hte same pace. No one is identical to another human being, therefore we we start putting people on pedestal we lose sight of equality and a human single human race. Without people putting themselves back on the same level as the person next to them. No one will be able to achieve peace. If no one can accept not only defeat but differences among each other then no one can truly be in peace and without being in peace you are not free. For freedom is registered as the ability to do what you seem is fit for the benefit of whoever you put most in life. Not what others have told you to believe in, for no one can reach for peace if someone is constantly shoving liturgy down into one’s throat.
I believe you should let life guide you and not what society says is the right path.
You never know where life will take you until you have already passed the mark- which will be never to some.
Today has be one of the worst days I’ve had in almost 5 years. My best friend and companion has shown a fate that no one should ever be able to foresee. He’s my copilot for all my errands. He’s my rock when I need someone to be there for me. He has always brightened my day no matter what mood i was in before. He was the one who could always tell what I needed. But now I must sit here and suffer for not knowing what may happen to him. I must abide here alone hoping and praying to whom ever may listen that he will be alright. That this is only a moment in his life and not his a residency. My only outlet to to let whomever may read, listen or hear of this know that I need someone to help him through this. I can’t take more people leaving my life. I can’t handle the sorrow and sadness that will always ensue me for the rest of my life. I’m cannot always be the strong person. I cannot not be this person anymore. It’s the worst possible stance one could take. I would rather be the coward than the the lion at this point. It’s too much to handle keeping myself together but only sparsely.
You know how, when people decide what they want to do when they graduate college they always say something like go off to grad school, be a doctor, go into the peace corps, etc.. I think I really want to be an executive assistant to someone.
I would fit the bill perfectly. I love organization, I love to talk, w rite , interact with people on a daily basis. I have no problem with telling someone no. I always think of others first. I have never minded working odd hours. I actually like doing things for other people so that they can enjoy life. I feel that as long as someone is happy life has to be good. It would be a job that I would cherish for forever. It would be sweet to be an assistant to an indie artist, a CEO just someone that travels because that would be so bomb to travel the world because it was for work.
Phew, Its been a rough quarter. But I’m extremely happy to say that I’ve completed my last Winter Quarter of college. It sounds so weird to say that this time next year I will be a big kid with a big kid job, ahh I don’t think I can handle that part just yet.
I’ve got so many things I want to do before I have to grow up and start living an adult life. I want to travel cross country. I want to go to Greece to see Nike. I want to go to a rave and just dance the night away. I want to be able to not do anything for a full 24 hrs but what I want to do. I want to write a book. I want to meet someone famous. I want to find out if the Winchester House is really haunted. I want to visit Hollywood and LA. I want to follow a band for a full summer just because I like their music. I want to meet new people and form new friendships. I want to find out who I am. I want to be able to not worry so much about the future but live in the present. I want to be a truly happy person. I just want to be me and not what everyone else wants me to be. I don’t want to do things half heatedly. I want to give 100% (because more than that is physically and mentally impossible). I just want to enjoy life for what it is. I want my life to be about adventures not jobs.
I wish life would be somewhat more carefree. I wish I could travel the world and not have to worry about what would I would have to do when I got back. I want to experience so many things but since life is all about regiment and normality no one would ever think this would be a good idea… for anyone. But for me I feel like it would not only liberate my soul but let me fully understand myself and be able to know who I am with 100% confidence. I feel that if I were to visit place like Angkor Wat, Amazon Rain Forrest, Aurora Borealis, Venice, The Acropolis, Pyramids of Giza, Manchu Picchu and so many other places like Cambodia, Amsterdam and the list goes on and on.
Don’t for get the art would be outstanding! It would further confirm that life is truly worth living and to show the feat we a a species have overcome, and it would also show how truly lucky we are a species to have been given the opportunity to be able to survive and thrive on the planet Earth, our home.
The moon is on my side I have no reason to run So will someone come and carry me home tonight The angels never arrived But I can hear the choir So will someone come and carry me home -We Are Young (Fun.)
