Today has be one of the worst days I’ve had in almost 5 years. My best friend and companion has shown a fate that no one should ever be able to foresee. He’s my copilot for all my errands. He’s my rock when I need someone to be there for me. He has always brightened my day no matter what mood i was in before. He was the one who could always tell what I needed. But now I must sit here and suffer for not knowing what may happen to him. I must abide here alone hoping and praying to whom ever may listen that he will be alright. That this is only a moment in his life and not his a residency. My only outlet to to let whomever may read, listen or hear of this know that I need someone to help him through this. I can’t take more people leaving my life. I can’t handle the sorrow and sadness that will always ensue me for the rest of my life. I’m cannot always be the strong person. I cannot not be this person anymore. It’s the worst possible stance one could take. I would rather be the coward than the the lion at this point. It’s too much to handle keeping myself together but only sparsely.